QUOTE OF A GREAT FRIEND

"WERE NOT HERE FOR A LONG TIME. WERE HERE FOR A GOOD TIME. LIFES A WASTE OF TIME. TIMES A WASTE OF LIFE. SO GET WASTED ALL THE TIME AND HAVE THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE." I MISS YOU DEREK C. MACKAY!

RIP DEREK C. MAKAY
RIP MATTHEW GREENWOOD "GREENY"

my reason for higher living

My baby sister means the world to me and i hope that she knows that. In my experiance i have found that younger siblings tend to follow in the older ones footsteps except the fact that they think that they can do what we did but better. haha thats funny. i have started to reform myslef so that i can be a good influence on my sister in hopes that she will not make the same mistakes that i have made. i hope that she will learn from my mistakes and that she wil make her own and learn from them. althought the big mistakes i wish that she could just learn form mine because i would never want her to have to go throught waht i live with everyday.

I was raped my sophomore year in high school and i havent beent he smae person since i see the people who did this time often in my town and i just have learned to let it go because i feel that they have no reason to say anything to me or my family. i am rather angry about the fact that they are out and roaming the steets again but i know that what they did to me has made me a stronger person in life. i turned to drugs after my rape and slowly spiraled out of control after that starting with pott and slowly making my way all the way to herion. i can not say that i would not have ended up in this situatution even if i didnt get raped i feel that the rape excalated my need for some form of happiness and since i didnt have any i had to create it.

my wake up call

The day my life changed. Three of my friends were on their way home from crash. after crash they went to the store a purcused a thirty rack of bud light. They then had to proceed to bring there friend home. on there way the dirver lost control of the car and crashed my two friends died in that crash. i am very thankful that i was not in that car because i was supposed to be. they were on their way to pick me up. this was one of the hardest things that i have ever had to face. why did my friends have to die? just thinking about it agers me. i believe my life changed in that long hour of watchiong my friends being carried up over the bank in pieces. having to go to their funurals is something that i wished that i didnt have to experiance at such a young age of nineteen. i have not done any drugs since my friends died. i have made a pact with my self that i will do better for my self and for my friends because i know that they would want me to do that at least.